Yup, right there with you. I am doing a lot of mental hacking, i.e. reading about depression and health. Loads of reflection about myself and how I got here. Trying to get a better perspective on the good things I've done and the things I like about myself. Spending time with friends, avoiding jobs and customers who I know will stress me out and accepting a lower standard of living because I need time to work this out. Also ended my relationship because I realized that she had no idea/interest in the things I was going through. Not that I recommend that for you, but I never would have been conscious of the additional stress that was causing if I had not taken time to think about my situation.
Long story short; make some space for you, research, think, reflect, reinvent. I am about half way to a new place optimistically speaking.
Long story short; make some space for you, research, think, reflect, reinvent. I am about half way to a new place optimistically speaking.