The problem is that most of the times suicide is not a rational decission taken by someone with terminal cancer to stop their fisical suffering.
Most of the times is the reaction of a malfunctioning brain. Most suicidals wouldn't have taken the decission in a normal situation (not depressed) , and those who failed to kill themselves are happy to be alive.
That's why it's so important to know the factors that trigger suicide compulsions, and the measures to better fight them..
A depresed person suicide brings a big suffering to the family and friends of the deceased, who most of the times don't know of the intentions.
It doesn't have to be a terminal cancer.
Sometimes it's just the loneliness, or the facts that led to it - for example unwillingly hurting people I care about because I'm a bit ... deficient when it comes to social skills and no matter how much I fret, I will, eventually but invariably, say something stupid that will make someone hurt.
Stuffing me full of antidepressants won't solve the underlying problem
Neither will a chat on a hotline - you hang up and the soulcrushing memories of those hurt people are back right away
But comiting suicide is not a logical decission in that situation. I don´t know you, I don´t know your case nor how to improve the situation. But being dead will not resolve the problem, and it will hurt the people you love much much more than any harsh comment you are able to do.
There is always the possibility to find a way out, and then realice that that dark hole you where in, was just a solvable problem.
You seem a techical guy, don´t use your analytic capabilities to rationalize and confirm your feelings, use them to get new information that is able to help you.
