People usually use the word 'evil' to say something is not just bad, but to imply that there is a spiritual or supernatural significance to it. I understand that thinking in those terms can make it easier to deal with suffering, but you cannot know those things. I am not saying you should not keep searching for meaning (nor find strength in the belief in a kind and loving god if you do), but you should also remember that you cannot know god, nor know the mind of god, and believing that you do is fooling yourself- especially when it comes to discounting others pain in comparison to your own
