I think I'd be happy in life if I believed in god and thought I was going to some happy place after I die and that any of this meant anything at the end of the day. I can't will myself to believe in Christianity or Scientology or Islam or Judaism however. Does that make me cynical?
There's a clear difference between skepticism and cynicism. I don't think one needs to be a cynic to be skeptical about outlandish or otherwise scientifically unproven claims (i.e. religion). If we are to look at the greek roots/ schools of thought. Cynics were engaged in finding fault in everything whereas Skeptics were thought to doubt claims (even those generally held true) and requiring substantial proof.
I don't know enough about your world view or anything, but you don't sound like a cynic.
