Life is finite, life is short. It can also feel quite long in certain stretches, particularly when you are in any kind of agony (whether physical, emotional, or in your case philosophical). But ultimately it is quite short, especially compared to the scale of things we can be aware of but not directly perceive. It is a painful realization, but usually this pain passes. It will pass more quickly if you don't try to fight it, eg by trying to figure out a solution or by wallowing.
It is repeated acts of acceptance that will get you through this painful realization. It is even possible to become cheerful about the whole endeavor. But the first step is to stop bashing your head against the brick wall of reality thinking that somehow helps you to keep doing it. Accept and experience the pain of your realization, as deeply as you need to, but stop wallowing and digging yourself deeper into the unpleasantness of it.
Of course you can lose yourself entirely if you devote your life to plumbing the depths of sadness that can be evoked by staying locked into all the loss you will ever experience as often as you can. Choose not to do that. It doesn't help anything, and it hurts far more than necessary like digging into an open wound for days and weeks on end. It doesn't mean pretending the reality away. Just experience the pain and move on with your day.
Eventually, like an adult who no longer breaks down in tears over a stubbed toe, you'll get used to experiencing the pain without it effecting your mind too much. You might even give a sad, knowing smile to yourself from time to time when these thoughts arise. This is the first signs you are on the track to cheerful acceptance of our mortality, which is an incredible tool to have in life.
Good luck with your profound struggles, and may they lead you somewhere worthwhile!
It is repeated acts of acceptance that will get you through this painful realization. It is even possible to become cheerful about the whole endeavor. But the first step is to stop bashing your head against the brick wall of reality thinking that somehow helps you to keep doing it. Accept and experience the pain of your realization, as deeply as you need to, but stop wallowing and digging yourself deeper into the unpleasantness of it.
Of course you can lose yourself entirely if you devote your life to plumbing the depths of sadness that can be evoked by staying locked into all the loss you will ever experience as often as you can. Choose not to do that. It doesn't help anything, and it hurts far more than necessary like digging into an open wound for days and weeks on end. It doesn't mean pretending the reality away. Just experience the pain and move on with your day.
Eventually, like an adult who no longer breaks down in tears over a stubbed toe, you'll get used to experiencing the pain without it effecting your mind too much. You might even give a sad, knowing smile to yourself from time to time when these thoughts arise. This is the first signs you are on the track to cheerful acceptance of our mortality, which is an incredible tool to have in life.
Good luck with your profound struggles, and may they lead you somewhere worthwhile!