Damn, I'm sorry to hear that. I relate to this because I've dealt with depression too, which I also medicated in various ways.
Other than quitting the two aforementioned drugs, what helped a lot for me was living in a more evolutionarily consistent way. Especially around nutrition, sunlight, and sleep. I made this the focus of my life for about a year because the alternative was, well, you know about that.
In the grand symphony of life, navigating its dissonant notes—our societal complexities—calls for a harmonious tune within ourselves, finding resilience in our daily rituals, shared experiences, and self-discovery, while cherishing the understanding that seeking help is not a discord but a beautiful part of our shared composition.
Other than quitting the two aforementioned drugs, what helped a lot for me was living in a more evolutionarily consistent way. Especially around nutrition, sunlight, and sleep. I made this the focus of my life for about a year because the alternative was, well, you know about that.
Good luck.