Here's an angle to try on - if you hate it, ignore it: Consider the selfishness of your desire. Going by how you mention families with young kids, it seems what you want to do is call a person into existence solely for your amusement and pleasure. To cause someone to be subjected to life with all its struggles (such as you are experiencing now), for 80 years or so, because you want to have fun playing with them while they are a kid and experience the ego-fulfilment of having a kid be amused by you. It can go further: Since you don't consider adoption it seems like you're invested in specifically creating somebody to be an extension of yourself, maybe so that you sort of 'live forever'. If someone brought me into the world specifically by that hubris, saddling me with a life that I have to work to maintain so that I don't experience huge suffering, then I would probably hate them.
