It kind of sounds like you are coming from a baseline assumption that your job should be the most important thing in your life, the thing that gives you fulfillment. That can be true for some people but it isn't true for all people, perhaps not even most people, as much as HN would have you believe that it is.
You have to make your own happiness. All of this shit is fundamentally meaningless anyway, so start from there and figure out how you want to spend your time.
No one here can solve your ennui for you. Only advice I can give is start trying things, throwing shit at the wall and see what sticks.
It kind of sounds like you are coming from a baseline assumption that your job should be the most important thing in your life, the thing that gives you fulfillment. That can be true for some people but it isn't true for all people, perhaps not even most people, as much as HN would have you believe that it is.
You have to make your own happiness. All of this shit is fundamentally meaningless anyway, so start from there and figure out how you want to spend your time.
No one here can solve your ennui for you. Only advice I can give is start trying things, throwing shit at the wall and see what sticks.