I'm a mid 30s male, software developer, married without children.
I started playing a video game at the end of 2019, and played every time I could when my wife was not home. Then came 2020, covid lockdowns, also I started getting better at the game (the ladder systems are so addictive) and played more. In 2021 I just didn't care anymore whether my wife was home or not or even if I was supposed to be working and started playing all the time. I'd wake up early to play and would go to bed late to catch up with work I had not done during the day.
According to Steam I played over 2.000 hours during 2020 and 2021.
Finally I decided I was seriously addicted and uninstalled the game, unsubscribed from everyone related to the game in youtube, quit all discord communities, and it worked.
I have been now "clean" for 4 months. But sometimes I crave to go back and play. I watched a youtube video in incognito recently of some famous player and had so much urge to play again. But I'm afraid just by installing the game I will be going back to the addiction.
Is it possible to have a "healthy" amount of playing? Let's say just a couple of hours in the weekends? The only reason I think I have been able to not play for 4 months is because it's time consuming for me to download/install the game again, set my keyboard shortcuts, etc. It will take at least 1 hour for me to set up everything and that's what is preventing me to go back. But if I had the game available and ready to launch in a click I am not sure I would be able to play only some hours on the weekends.
What I love about this particular game is how I can totally focus mind and body for each 30-40 minutes match where I won't take a look at my cellphone or anything can distract me really because I'm totally focused basically in a real "flow" state. Of course it's a flow state for something irrelevant to my life or society, so it's basically a waste of time I guess... But I also don't have the change to get to this flow state in my day job or in other activity really, adult life can be so boring sometimes...
Really curious if someone else has experienced something similar
That will break the dopamine cycle and you’ll be free.
Maybe it also works to limit play time to healthy levels.
For example, I was once playing quite a bit of WoW, and after I trying it out on an unofficial server where I could teleport anywhere made the game lose all its appeal.