I’ve grown very suspicious of utilitarian mindsets which essentially function by deluding yourself into something useful rather than truth being the motivating factor. Some people are actually disempowered and hopeless and delusions of agency are going to just inflict psychic harm upon them. I’ve seen severely disabled people take care of from cradle to grave for instance, trying to get them to take responsibility when bad things happened to them was just cruel typically.
I’ve been in situations in my own life where my situation was literally hopeless and I had to simply wait to get beaten badly enough that the authorities around me couldn’t ignore it. There was no third party to consult, no future victims to prevent (terrible burden to put on people by the way), no help to be had, I really had no real options. Sometimes all you can do is bide your time and taking responsibility is a stamina sapping waste of energy.
Agency isn’t simply a thought exercise and it’s not productive to simply just imagine that you have it. Taking the bitterness and anger you have at others not doing their jobs and directing those impulses inwards is hazardous and should be approached with caution.
I'm in no way trying to say that anyone can get themselves a good outcome by trying hard and believing they can. That's obviously fiction.
I understand, too, that I have freedoms and opportunities most humans never get, and that I can't truly understand the experience of someone who has been abused and beaten down, or of someone deeply disabled and unable to perform the basic mechanics of survival on their own.
I do understand that it's clearly a bad idea to tell people that they can do things the world has not left them with the capacity to do. You're certainly right that in many cases agency is partly or mostly lost, and then there isn't much can a person can actually do to help themselves. I'm sorry to hear that's something you've experienced.
I'm not suggesting that others should try to push the attitude I'm trying to describe onto others. I'm saying that I've found it very helpful and I'm trying to explain why.
I'm not recommending pointing bitterness and anger at yourself. Humans often do horrible, reprehensible things, and they should be held accountable for those things. We should never hold ourselves at fault for others' abuses, we should not pretend they haven't harmed us, and we shouldn't repress the emotions we feel in response to the mistreatment and abuse we experience.
I'm just saying that you can take responsibility for taking care of yourself, as much as you are able, while accepting any help and support you are able to find or that others offer.
The only alternatives I can see are counting on others to do it for you or giving up entirely.
I’ve been in situations in my own life where my situation was literally hopeless and I had to simply wait to get beaten badly enough that the authorities around me couldn’t ignore it. There was no third party to consult, no future victims to prevent (terrible burden to put on people by the way), no help to be had, I really had no real options. Sometimes all you can do is bide your time and taking responsibility is a stamina sapping waste of energy.
Agency isn’t simply a thought exercise and it’s not productive to simply just imagine that you have it. Taking the bitterness and anger you have at others not doing their jobs and directing those impulses inwards is hazardous and should be approached with caution.