The alias you created to make this post speaks to the pain and darkness that must be your life and I am sorry for whatever is going on.
On whether I am rational or not, I'll just say this: Einstein believed what I believe. Newton believed what I believe. That doesn't mean I am right but I am certainly in good company.
> On whether I am rational or not, I'll just say this: Einstein believed what I believe. Newton believed what I believe. That doesn't mean I am right but I am certainly in good company.
No, they did not [1] [2]. The two believed such diametrically opposed things that I can't believe anyone could claim to be in the company of both at the same time.
Please leave the condescension at the door. It does not reflect well on your beliefs.
I don't think that was his point. Just that neither one took such an overtly hostile position towards matters of faith, but instead recognized its role.
“For me the Jewish religion like all other religions is an incarnation of the most childish superstition… As far as my experience goes, they are in fact no better than other human groups, even if they are protected from the worst excesses by a lack of power. Otherwise I cannot perceive anything ‘chosen’ about them.”
Believing in god is not the same as believing in the will of god manifested as a religion or some rules you suppose to follow. Not that religion is all "fairy tails", tails are just one part and the rest are rules and philosophical aspects.
It's always been my experience that motivation depends on the spirit you can manufacture in yourself.