i did see numb long before i was conscious of the problem, i will give it a rewatch
giving that thread a read as well
if i leave nothing else behind i hope i'm at some point able to impart some knowledge on how to navigate this, with how we're living our lives i'm worried it will be commonplace before long
It's like being thrown into a dark hole and being left there all by yourself, 24/7, for years.
If you haven't seen it, Numb (2007) has captured this state pretty well:
https://youtube.com/watch?v=Aa60FdWbdYY
Also, it seems, there was a related thread here a year ago:
https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=19018914
That's just a reminder, that you are not alone.