Yes, mediation, mindfulness and several other techniques for controlling emotions were things that we tried with my psychiatrist. Meditation didn't really work for me but mindfulness sure did.
I know, but consider psychiatric meds perscribed - its generally very risky to mess with one’s head. Ive 700hours in monasteries under my belt, ive seen the dark side of meditation, aswell as its light. I still say take the risk tho.
Mindful is a great tool. It needn't be vipassana. Many People who do vipassana often are at a point where its a last resort before something worse.
Oh yes i did mean mindfulness meditation, i have been to several mindfulness retreats (vipassanas) and used to have ADHD. I find cold showers and a morning/evening mindfulness sit work wonders.
I suppose I should clarify the kind of mindfulness I'm talking about. Basically what I was taught was how to pay attention to what I'm feeling and where those emotions are coming from. This helps a lot with lowering my anxiety and stress levels. Unlike meditation, this isn't something that I stop to do, aside from maybe a brief pause to take a couple of breaths, it's something I do throughout the day when I start feeling bad.
Meditation didn't work for me because it implied taking some time out my day to do it, and that would just and either become a way to procrastinate or something that I would procrastinate doing and contribute to my anxiety.
That aside, I think there's a lot of confusion about the terms "meditation," "mindful mediation" and "mindfulness" and I'm not sure I know the correct way to use them, but the above is what I mean when I say "mindfulness."
I don't think it's possible to procrastinate using mindfulness meditation. If you're trying to avoid something, what you're really trying to avoid are the associated emotions. Mindfulness meditation does literally the opposite.
I find that by letting the emotions I'd like to avoid come to my consciousness -- i.e. meditating -- I get used to them. That frequently outright removes my procrastinating problem.
> that I would procrastinate doing and contribute to my anxiety.
You don't have to schedule meditation. Just do it when you feel like it, expand your brief pauses. And if you don't feel like meditating for weeks or months, so be it.
I find the only thing that comes in the way of meditation is the mind’s attempt to escape while under duress. People tend to prefer to drink, watch something, and even blame others, rather than sit and close eyes and feel.
Thats why i think its important to actually have a meditation buddy to help out with starting, and when its particularly tough.
The more an ego needs to meditate, it seems that it develops more and more aversion - i sort of think its one major cause for many mental pathologies.
I'd pay some seriously good money for some information about how to efficiently meditate with ADD. From my experience, it is a poor tool to improve one's condition, and ADD makes it nigh impossible to efficiently meditate anyway. I have done some googling on that topic and only find lame "meditation for wellbeing" BS all around, but nothing clearly targeted for ADD.
Lookup a 10 day vipassana retreat /with a good teacher/ (important! Bad vipassana can cause psychosis esp. if teacher is rigid. And uve a traumatic past)
In the beginning, you will fight your ego, certain traumas will surface, you learn to accept alot about urself too. The less that disturbs the ego, the calmer it is.
Even to this my meditation is disturbed, but im a much calmer person.
Mind you its complex too, could be a food habits/mild allergy contributing to existing factors. Did you try a water fast with some power coffee?
