I grew up poor even by local standards during a civil war in a former communist state. Had 5 younger brothers and sisters living in a 30m2 apartment, electricity regularly being cut off, days without food, etc.
I identify with nothing you said - I could clearly identify the causes of the poverty in our family in my dysfunctional parents.
The biggest problem with being poor is when you get stuck at 0 it's incredibly hard to get out of that. Hard to start well at a new job when you got nothing to eat at home, don't know if your power is going to get switched off tomorrow and you might get evicted any moment.
I would say the first time I lost the fears you mentioned was when I hit the lowest point - when you decide your life isn't worth living the way it is - what do you have to lose ?
But those fears weren't the thing holding me back - and overcoming them didn't really pull me out either - sure it put me in a different mindset once I got the opportunity - but it took getting help from my sister (who I supported earlier) now getting in a better situation where she could help me get out of that stuck at 0 while I deal with my debts and get the opportunity to do something.
I identify with nothing you said - I could clearly identify the causes of the poverty in our family in my dysfunctional parents.
The biggest problem with being poor is when you get stuck at 0 it's incredibly hard to get out of that. Hard to start well at a new job when you got nothing to eat at home, don't know if your power is going to get switched off tomorrow and you might get evicted any moment.
I would say the first time I lost the fears you mentioned was when I hit the lowest point - when you decide your life isn't worth living the way it is - what do you have to lose ?