Awesome, you have reached the low point and asked for help. That's the first step. Now you need to get your shit together and here is the roadmap that I would recommend. Focus on fixing your existence in the following order:
1. Body (sleeping, eating, exercise, spend time in the sun and outdoors)
2. Mind (reading, learning social/soft skills, discipline, journal)
3. Spirit (meditate, pray, hobby, get into flow state)
To start living a better, more fulfilling life you need to drop bad habits and acquire new better ones. You need to do it gradually, one by one, over a longer period of time. Drop one bad, gain one good. Check out book Atomic Habits.
It is important to start with the body because the quality of your thoughts and emotional stability is directly related to your nutritional intake, discipline, sleep, etc.
I read that majority of your discontent comes from work. Like may of us, you are using work (something that can think you can control) to distract yourself from other, more important aspects of your life (that are seemingly out of your control).
As an engineer, your whole life/career you are focused on computer-based logical problems. That created an imbalance because you neglected human-based emotional problems. That is why it is crucial to start developing soft skills. You can start with the book called How to Win Friends and Influence People.
Good luck on your journey and remember - If you think you can do it, or you think you cannot do it, you are right.
To start living a better, more fulfilling life you need to drop bad habits and acquire new better ones. You need to do it gradually, one by one, over a longer period of time. Drop one bad, gain one good. Check out book Atomic Habits.
It is important to start with the body because the quality of your thoughts and emotional stability is directly related to your nutritional intake, discipline, sleep, etc.
I read that majority of your discontent comes from work. Like may of us, you are using work (something that can think you can control) to distract yourself from other, more important aspects of your life (that are seemingly out of your control).
As an engineer, your whole life/career you are focused on computer-based logical problems. That created an imbalance because you neglected human-based emotional problems. That is why it is crucial to start developing soft skills. You can start with the book called How to Win Friends and Influence People.
Good luck on your journey and remember - If you think you can do it, or you think you cannot do it, you are right.