I don't care if this is normal or not, and honestly, I don't know you. How am I supposed to help you?
You could be:
A bad programmer.
A good programmer.
A non social person, and hate socializing with colleagues.
A social person and hate writing code alone.
A good leader that wants to decide by himself.
A bad leader that just want another relationship with his boss.
You want to be happy in your live, don't you?. So go to a good psychologist or read books and fix that by yourself. You are a grown up human. Take responsibility.
> So go to a good psychologist or read books and fix that by yourself.
Believe it or not, people who go out and try to find a good psychologist often wind up with mediocre, or even bad ones. Same with books and many other things. If someone provided the magic keys to help them find good books and good psychologists, you'd still need to know where to get the keys, and it's a catch-22.
I don't care if this is normal or not, and honestly, I don't know you. How am I supposed to help you?
You could be: A bad programmer. A good programmer. A non social person, and hate socializing with colleagues. A social person and hate writing code alone. A good leader that wants to decide by himself. A bad leader that just want another relationship with his boss.
You want to be happy in your live, don't you?. So go to a good psychologist or read books and fix that by yourself. You are a grown up human. Take responsibility.