I am getting confirmation day by day that people dont want to spend with me. Usually I do small talk, initiate conversation but it seems many people I come across do talk only because I initiated conversation.
I also feel resistance when I ask someone to go out on outings, trip or to bar/club.
Without saying it goes that I still don't have GF or wife. I am 29 and getting near 30 is a bit scary.
What is wrong with me, seriously ?
Insecure men also struggle with their manliness. This is usually a taboo topic, but you need to address it and be sincere about it: do you feel emasculated? "Without saying it goes that I still don't have GF or wife. I am 29 and getting near 30 is a bit scary." There are more people than you realize in your same situation; worse, there are people who married early and are now stuck in a loveless, bleak marriage. one of my mentors – I respect him so much! – found the love of his life in his late 40s, after an awful, awful marriage.
You're a free, young man in his quest for manhood and respect. Just like everyone else. :)
Lastly, let me link you to a post where I addressed my insecurities: https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=8745651
If you need an e-mail pal, reply to this post and I'll give you my contact information. :)