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Garzik: An Andre To Remember (lwn.net)
233 points by asto on July 28, 2012 | hide | past | web | favorite | 72 comments

I was going to respond to a few of the comments here, but then I realized I was going to say pretty much the same to all of them, so here goes:

I've got clinical depression. What this means is that there is something fundamentally wrong in my brain that causes me to be depressed. There is no direct environmental cause that makes me depressed. Now, here's what many people get wrong about severe depression:

Severe depression does NOT mean that exercise, a healthy diet and getting a social life won't help at all.

Rather, depression completely drains your motivation to do any of those things. Which in turn make you more depressed. Which makes you even less likely to do any of them. And so on and so forth. It's 'positive' feedback, but it starts with a neurological problem. This is why all the 'cheer up'-sort of advice doesn't help people who're depressed, and why it tends to only make them more miserable.

Of course, this is only my experience. I'm quite sure there are plenty of people who are depressed for reasons found in their environment, and then get stuck in the same loop. But it would be ridiculous to presume that I'm unique in this regard.

I also have clinical depression, and this has also been my experience.

Something which also adds to the problems is that people so often condescend - 'you won't feel better unless you do X, Y or Z' and actually essentially accuse you of bringing it on yourself. And a lot of the problem is the guilt you feel about everything, so it's the worst possible thing you can do for a depressed person.

I find having some project that gives you an output is important, to contradict the standard 'oh don't spend so much time on a computer project' points. The alternative a lot of the time for me is spending all day in bed because I feel so low, so having an outlet matters. But of course you then find it hard to balance that.

Having said that, all the standard healthy advice is important too. It's just really important to differentiate between mild and severe depression - it's like the difference between having the flu and people recommending painkillers and having a serious chronic disease. The advice is good for mild depression but really not going to touch anything for the severe variety.

For people who are lucky enough not to suffer from severe depression - don't presume to know what it's like because you've felt a little bit low before.


"clinical" depression is meaningless. Literally, it has no meaning. Perhaps you mean "Diagnosed by a real doctor", as opposed to "self diagnosed from a check list"?

But when we look at depression diagnosed by experts we see a variety of forms, and a variety of strengths.

I agree that well meaning people sometimes offer really bad advice.

But advice about developing a healthy lifestyle (being careful with caffeine, alcohol, recreational drugs; eating better; sorting out sleep; getting exercise) and developing a social life are important, because these thing help people with very serious, life threatening, illness. In combination with therapy they can be part of an effective cure for many people. (At least leaving others with several years of recovery). If needed, this advice can be combined with medication. And, if needed, all of this stuff can be started if the patient is in hospital. (At least in England all MH hospitals should have programmes of OT to start social life outside hospital and they should have some kind of exercise stuff, and contacts with local gyms.)

I've known people who are ill enough to require electro convulsive therapy and they said that this other stuff was important to them, but that they needed help to apply it.

And that's the important thing. Saying "I am to ill to do this stuff" is not the same as saying "this stuff would not be helpful to me if I did it". What people need is help to apply this stuff.

Well, to me 'clinical' depression implies diagnosed by a doctor, yes.

Sure, and it does vary a lot. So perhaps I meant to say severe vs. mild.

People overstate these things to a degree. Like I said, sure they help, but it's scratching the surface IMHO. What's more important is to attack the depression itself, directly.

And, though anecdotal, I've been through periods being severely depressed despite going to the gym a lot, and eating relatively well, and had it make very little difference. I've also socialised a lot and had that make no difference. So this isn't just conjecture.

I guess part of it is that it varies from person to person. Also the degree of the depression at any given time waxes and wanes.

And agreed, a key thing is to admit you can't do it all by yourself, and go and get help.

The key thing, however, is for people to lose that attitude of 'go get a life doing things I think are healthy/fun and you'll be happy' because, basically, that's b.s. projection, and for some it borders on blame-the-victim mentality.

I think diseases like depression are particularly problematic because people don't take them seriously and imagine that they're not all that serious, perhaps slightly made up, or not as solid and easy to diagnose and understand as a physical illness. Perhaps people need to come to respect it more.

In most cases CBT & exercise and better food is attacking the depression itself, directly.

> The key thing, however, is for people to lose that attitude of 'go get a life doing things I think are healthy/fun and you'll be happy' because, basically, that's b.s. projection,

Yes, I agree.

Yeah, I guess I'm saying CBT (+ related, I find SBT[1] very effective myself) >>> lifestyle improvements.


The phrase "clinical depression" distinguishes depression (in the clinical, officially-diagnosed sense) from depression (in the informal, no-more-cookies-angst sense).

If you want to know more about the technical meaning of "depression," consult DSM.

But "clinical" has no meaning. It is not mentioned in DSM or in ICD.

There are hundreds of types of cancer - does the DSM have a general entry called 'cancer'?

'Clinical depression' is a way of specifying something more problematic than simple sadness. When your sports team loses, you get depressed.

No, depression is enough to distinguish from simple sadness, or grief, or other forms of sadness which are not pathological. Depression is already defined as an illness, and not simple sadness. Prefixing nonsense words does nothing to increase understanding of the illness of depression or of the normal forms of sadness that people experience.

Medical professionals do not ever call something clinical depression. They'll use words like reactive or endogenous etc.

The solution to people mis-using the term depression to apply it to things which are not depression is to stop people mis-using that term, not to invent other terms.

> When your sports team loses, you get depressed.

No, you are sad, fed-up, gutted, sick as a parrot, annoyed, frustrated, mournful, etc. You are not depressed, because depression is an illness.

The other problem with "clinical" is that it is widely used by cranks - see for example "clinical nutritionist".

'Depressed mood' is regularly used in both psychology and medicine. "The patient arrived in a depressed state" does not mean that they have one of the ongoing illesses of Depression.

Medical professionals do not ever call something clinical depression.

I used to work in a neurology lab, and I heard consultant neurologists use the term. I do not agree with 'do not ever'. Unless you're counting medical specialists that take 13 years to train as somehow not being 'professionals'.

Just googling 'clinical depression' comes up with a few links of professionals (like the Mayo Clinic) using the term. The important thing to not is that just because a term might not be in the DSM does not mean that the term is not used or meaningless. Yes, I'll agree, it's not used to refer to one specific disorder, but that doesn't make it meaningless.

You are not depressed, because depression is an illness.

Depression is an illness. It is also a transient state. You're doing the same thing as those people who say "but 'kid' actually means 'baby goat'".

The other problem with "clinical" is that it is widely used by cranks

Fallacy of association: Cars are widely used by criminals, therefore we should not use cars. Would you really correct a co-worker who said 'bob is depressed because his team lost last night' with 'no he's not, because depression is an illness'?

Let it go man. The distinction makes sense for a lot of people and you're just being a stickler and a contrarian at this point.

> "clinical" depression is meaningless. Literally, it has no meaning.

That would be incorrect, sir: http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/clinical-depression/AN01057

'clinical depression' has a biological base and responds better to pharmaceutical intervention, and generally covers the diagnosable stuff in the DSM. 'regular' depression is just being sad because of life events - when your wife leaves you and your dog dies, that's when you get 'regular' depression.

In my experience, depression is something you can't cure. You can fix it for a while, but it always lurks, waiting to come back.

In my case, environmental changes ensure that it won't show up again as strong or as fast. I'm pretty sure I don't need medication right now.

But that's not to say I'm cured by any means. Just that I'm doing better and finding ways of coping with it.

Could you describe those environmental changes, I've been curious about this for a while.

Got decent furniture, got the roommate to get his own apartment and I am sprucing up the abode in general so that it looks like a person actually lives here, rather than inhabits the space. Using brighter colors that are outside of my usual blacks and browns. This is all very normal stuff for other people, I suppose, but its something I never really thought about. I wasn't paying attention to my surroundings much. As it stands right now, I wouldn't be ashamed to invite people over for an evening, whereas before, I kept my door shut so people didn't see the mess.

I'm making an effort to be more sociable, which is difficult. I'm middle-aged and haven't dated or had a relationship since high school and so I've got some real hurdles to overcome there. That part may be impossible to overcome, but I'm trying it, slowly.

The very affectionate cat I've had for a couple of years helps, too. A pet forces you to focus on something other than your own misery. Plus, it's hard to have a suck day when the cat is standing on your chest, headbutting you in the chin or trying to eat your hand while you type.

This isn't necessarily the answer for everyone. It may only be me. I do know that a year ago I was very miserable, felt worthless and dead inside, and now I don't feel like that anymore.

Have any forms of cognitive behaviour therapy or say innerchild/regression therapy helped or been explored? Have you explored dietary changes? Did you have ear infections as a child (relevant question)?

Yes and yes. Both didn't work, or didn't have enough effect to get me out of the no-motivation cycle. Ergo, SSRIs (which thankfully did work). Yes to the third question, too (as a matter of fact I had a cholesteatoma). Could you tell me how that is relevant?

Sorry for the delay in responding. Hearing can actually be related to depression. http://www.aitinstitute.org/ - the website / therapy is marketed towards children with autism as that is the largest group affected, and the most severely. There's an out-of-print book called "Hearing Equals Behaviour" by the researcher who 45+ years ago discovered a correlation between hearing and behaviour. People are 100% going to be depressed if they have a hearing imbalance at 1,000 Hz; Imbalance is if say in one ear the lowest you can hear is 11 Dbs, and the other ear you can hear at 14 Dbs - that shows an imbalance of 3 Dbs. The sound therapy I listed helps let the mind 'release' and equalize those imbalances. If you have an imbalance at 1,000 Hz then medication won't he, cognitive behaviour therapy won't help. I imagine it's possible to not be "locked into" a depressive state, but set into one temporarily with hearing-related issues early on - I'm unsure it would fruitful to investigate further.

It's not likely relevant, really. Sometimes people are depressed after flu or ear infection and attribute it to that.

There's some sense in:

1. If you're stressed and/or avoiding sunlight, you're more likely to be depressed and fall ill.

2. You feel less pleasure while severely sick. Personally, I notice my affect when thinking about everything is dramatically different. I discount it for that reason.

3. Depression apparently involves some feedback loops that can make it a fairly stable equilibrium; so the shift in experience during the sickness might linger (perhaps the isolation and lack of sun while sick lingers).

I don't see any studies showing a strong link. To present my own anecdote, I had a dozen ear infections before my teens and have never experienced depression. This is a very small bit of evidence, though.

And as usual with this issue, this post shows little understanding of depression.

> There is no computing project that is worth your life. Turn off the computer. Seek help. Get outside, enjoy the green grass, the birds in the trees. Talk to people you know. Talk to strangers! Drive to Wisconsin, and find out whatever it is they do there. Build a treehouse. Park on a parkway and drive on a driveway. Make a macaroni necklace. Visit a dairy. Climb a rock. Seek life.

Every point except for Seek Help is just "cheer up, pal" bunk.

What do we mean by "seek help"?

Currently, we have two gold standard treatments, SSRI drugs and Cognitive Behavioural Therapy.

SSRI drugs probably sort of work a bit, depending on how much weight you place on non-publication bias. The most flattering data suggests that SSRIs beat placebo by about 30%, meaning that over 75% of the effect of SSRIs is accounted for by placebo - the patient's own beliefs about the efficacy of the treatment.

Cognitive Behavioural Therapy is based upon the idea that a patient can learn to think differently about daily events and their emotional responses to them, and in doing so improve their overall mood and reduce specific symptoms of psychological distress. The entire basis for CBT is the idea that people control their own moods through cognition, with the goal of making the patient self-sufficient in managing their mood. The notion that only clinical intervention can improve depressive symptoms directly contradicts the most effective treatment for depression.

In the best case, either of these treatments is only marginally more efficacious than arbitrary interventions that generally improve wellbeing - exercise, better diet, mindfulness practice etc.

There is simply no scientific basis for arguing that depression can only be alleviated through clinical intervention. Study after study has shown (though rarely highlighted in the abstract) that placebo is an incredibly powerful treatment for depression, to the extent that basically anything is a good treatment so log as the patient believes in it.

The belief that clinical intervention is the only way to improve depressive symptoms is at best inaccurate and baseless, at worst actively harmful. It is an irrational and essentially depressive belief and propagating it runs counter to all our interests.


Exercise is not an "arbitrary" intervention, because it also has an evidence base.

Starting someone on a course of CBT (whether applied by a skilled practitioner, or self guided[1]) and then pushing them to exercise and to social life improvement, with meds if needed, is an excellent treatment.

Going to someone to hear them say "exercise and improve your diet" is "seeking help".

Getting help is goal number one. However leading a more balanced life helps tremendously with preventing and maintaining some mental issues associated with thousands of hours of intellectually intense work. I feel strongly the above suggestions of spending more time outdoors, meeting new people etc are much more than "just cheer up" advice.

The problem with that kind of advice is that doing those things (spending time outdoors, meeting new people) require willpower, and being depressed, or anxious, or in a number of other states of mind, saps your willpower, and therefore your ability to execute on any of these suggestions.

Practical suggestions are the kind of things a therapist will recommend when you do seek help: cognitive behavioral therapy, or pharmacological solutions. They're practical because talking to someone on a set schedule every week, or taking a pill on a set schedule every day, requires much less willpower than the things people usually suggest, but has effects which increase your willpower, and thus your capacity for attempting those other things.

When you're in deep depression you literally can't make yourself do anything. You may logically and reasonably know that you should go outside but you can't force yourself to actually open the door.

I've studied mental illness formally and suffer from some mild clinical depression myself. It's my sincere opinion that people simply can't understand mental illness unless they have properly studied it or have direct personal experience (including by proxy). It just doesn't fit into the uninitiated's picture of the world.

That being said, although the article doesn't show a deep understanding of mental illness, the things he mentions in the last paragraph can help ameliorate depression. One of the big problems is that it's really hard for a mentally ill person to motivate themselves to try to fix things - mental illness is really insidious; even if you know you have an illness, you may not realise you're having an episode.

Based on the description on the Article this is anything but depression

May be bipolar disorder, or something more serious

But it's true, it's a misunderstanding, this has nothing to do with "staying in the computer too long" or "being stressed out" or "not going to the park"

Indeed, Andre's symptoms seem to match more of an onset of paranoid schizophrenia rather than depression.

Unfortunately, it seems that genetics is a key factor of causing mental illness, rather than the time you spend on the computer. So even if you're the healthiest person physically, you can still be at risk of a mental disorder...

Anecdotally, I've found exercise very helpful.

Exercise seems to work because it allows us to switch our brains off and concentrate on our bodies. I like to see it as a way to give your brain room to breathe.

Reminds me, I need to work out and free my mind more often :)

It's saddening that people scrutinize everything literally and give opinions out of context. It's sometimes OK not to be scathingly logical and objective. We are humans, subjective and emotional beings, not binary numbers.

It's hard to disagree with the general sentiment, but trading a life for a computing project is not really what happened here. Software development does not cause mental illness. In some cases, stressful jobs contribute to a person's mental degradation - but it's not like there was ever an option of trading in this guys passion for technology in exchange for a healthy brain.

I feel the real message of the article/letter is to take better care of yourself. No project is worth ending up in a situation where you feel life is not worth living, and while software and other computer things are cool and for most of us probably both work and a hobby, it's important to take a break from things.

I know I would go absolutely crazy if I could not go outside to do things like ride a mountain bike, eat some ice cream or simply just not sit in front of a monitor every day.

If you are feeling stressed, take a break. :)


I know it can be hard, and I know people who suffer from depressions can seem perfectly fine.

A girl I went to school with recently killed herself, much to my surprise, as through my very limited contact with her these past years she seemed very happy in a relationship and about to finish school. The next thing I know she had ended her life. Depression is not something to be taken lightly.

I wish I had known, and I wish there was something I could have done or said.

That's a false dichotomy. The author of the article is suggesting you can trade obsession with technology for a healthier brain, and that this trade may have cost a life in this instance. Also, passion need not be obsession.

Programming all day isn't what our bodies are genetically designed to do. Programming involves countless hours of ruminative thoughts, and limiting human contact, and stress, all of which are ingredients for mental illness.

That's not what's mentioned in the email. It's clearly said that mental illness is almost like an offshoot of intelligence, not software development. The phrase 'trading life for a computing project' was a metaphor. I knew before starting to read the comments that there will be people scrutinizing the email literally and giving their opinions. Jeff clearly mentions that obsessing over one thing is not worth it. Life's much more beautiful than that. This is not just for coding, but any profession requiring such heavy use of intelligence.

> Software development does not cause mental illness.

Correct, no job/task does.

But burnout can, and any task/job/what-ever can cause that if you let yourself get into an unhealthy cycle while performing it. Development seems to be a task that is more prone to this though, I think because with many other tasks (that are more physical) other parts of your body tend to give out first and you have to take a break (if only to sleep or (eventually) pass out if you don't sleep voluntarily) before the point where your brain jumps track.

Do you know of a stressful job that improves a person's mental state rather than degrades it? That is, what proportion of cases is "[i]n some cases?"

Get outside, enjoy the green grass, the birds in the trees. Talk to people you know. Talk to strangers! Drive to Wisconsin, and find out whatever it is they do there. Build a treehouse. Park on a parkway and drive on a driveway. Make a macaroni necklace. Visit a dairy. Climb a rock. Seek life.

This is advice for someone who had a bad day. This is not advice for someone who is depressed! These suggestions assume that the person has hope. Or even considers the possibility of ever having hope again. There's just no way I can tell someone who hasn't been on this train what it's like to ride it. It's like being dead in a way. Would you tell a dead man to get out and enjoy the grass? It's a bit like that.

You sound like someone personally familiar with depression?

If so, may I ask a question?

I imagine it is true that people who are depressed may have a mental blockade to self-diagnose and independently coming to the conclusion that they may be suffering from depression. But is it also true that people who are depressed may also (always, sometimes) be resistant to the suggestion from others that they may be suffering from depression? ie: Is it common that depression may be accompanied by a self-defense mechanism whereby the afflicted may be highly resistant to the suggestion or any discussion of the topic?

Secondarily....if you are worried about someone, what would be a good approach? Talk to them on one of their "up" days, hoping that they may be thinking more clearly than usual?

>> But is it also true that people who are depressed may also (always, sometimes) be resistant to the suggestion from others that they may be suffering from depression?

I had a girlfriend once, who suffered from bipolar disorder. The problem is the feelings that you have while having a depressive episode are real problems to you, in the sense that they affect you very deeply at that point. When someone suggests to that person that maybe you are just depressed, it often seems to them that you are trying to ignoring the issue and instead trying to shift the blame on them. This infuriates them further and they either lash out against you or shut up. After screwing up a couple of times,every time I realized she was possibly having an episode I tried to put it very gently to her and only after talking about whatever is bothering her. I will also suggest going through this link to understand how people having a depressive episode feel(Even though the article is about lupus). http://www.butyoudontlooksick.com/articles/written-by-christ...

Depression makes people, ok made me entirely too passive to hear anything. Do rocks have mental blocks against seeing that they are rocks? It took an actual physical intervention involving my parents, friends and one of my professors to reach me. I wish there was something easier to tell you.

Many depressed people realize they are depressed, and lack the will or energy to do anything about it.

Some clinical trials have shown St. John's Wort is effective for relieving mild depression - and you don't need a prescription to get it.

Get some, then literally beg the person to take some while you have some too.

But is it also true that people who are depressed may also (always, sometimes) be resistant to the suggestion from others that they may be suffering from depression?

Independently of the effects of a disorder, most people don't easily accept any kind of criticism exposing a weakness.

>Get outside, enjoy the green grass, the birds in the trees. Talk to people you know. Talk to strangers! Drive to Wisconsin, and find out whatever it is they do there. Build a treehouse. Park on a parkway and drive on a driveway. Make a macaroni necklace. Visit a dairy. Climb a rock. Seek life.

This is what becoming a parent is like!

Have a kid and you'll do a lot more of this stuff!

I am depressed (clinically diagnosed as major depression) and I am a parent... a stay at home dad, owing to my lack of employment (which is the root of my hopelessness). It's awful. I hate it.

Thanks in no small part to the kid, I'm getting more outdoors time, more exercise, better diet, and socialization with the kid's friends. My mood is still inching downward.

My mood is still inching downward

This, too shall pass.


This story hits close to home for me. As one of the countless others like me on Hacker News who started out their educations and careers with so much promise, all I feel anymore is this tremendous sense of failure and missed opportunity.

These days I think of programming the way I think of working out: intense bursts of focus on creativity for maybe 2-4 hours if I'm lucky, and then hours to days of melancholy because the tools and methodologies I'm using are all garbage.

Examples of mainstream trash: ios, objective-c, flash, php, c++, 802.11, usb, xml, html5, mpeg, mp3, dram caches, opengl, just on and on and on. Literally every tool I use on a daily basis, every file format, every communication protocol, everything, all fatally flawed in some way. My life has been an almost complete waste.

I don't know much about IDE/ATA but it must be quite a garbage dump to traverse. Turning that into something clean like a socket/file reference is remarkable. Just think of all the things that don't work on hard drives: how they fail to write the last bit of data in a power failure or maintain directory consistency, how they were so far behind on caching and hybrid flash/platter drives, just on and on, a tower of babel of remarkably cheap but inadequate hardware. Dealing with that, and the layers of politics that perpetuate such monstrosities would be enough to drive a person mad.

Thank god I'm not depressed though. I was severely out of it from 2000-2010 for a lot of obvious reasons but I finally let everything go and have never been happier. I. Am. Not. Depressed. It's glorious to say, I feel it all the way to my core. Life can turn around, and one day you'll wake up and realize that you don't give a crap about solving the world's problems anymore, because it's all too far gone. It's not your fault. Just find your niche and reach some level of sustainability, and save the world later.

Alan Kay's STEPS project is a non-mainstream paradigm you might find inspiring. Saw this pdf recently and it blew my mind, which happens much less often than it used to (like you, I'm becoming more prone to irritability and frustration).


AFAIK, the software interface used with PATA (and SATA in legacy mode) dates backs to the WD1003 used in the original IBM PC/AT!

That's a sad story, and one that's too common in our industry. Mental health issues in software are sadly under-discussed.

If you feel like making a difference I'd recommend donating to the Brain & Behavior Research Foundation. They fund studies into mental health disorders, an area of science that is still only vaguely understood.


They're probably not just under-discussed in software but in any industry, because they're under-discussed in society as a whole. I don't know about the US but I believe mentally ill people often refuse to seek help even after they recognized their condition simply because they realize they're "not normal", afraid to be put in the drawer labeled with "crazy guys".

I think though that mental illnesses are a lot more common than we realize, and to some degree society is actually breeding them. It's a very complex topic though, so take that as an opinion, not as facts or anything.

I think it makes more sense as just another means by which business consumes workers. I know that sounds all profound and over-generalized crypto-Marxist, but if you look back upon history I think you'll see a consumption metaphor where business is basically treating workers as fungible, resisting healthcare benefits and other quality-of-life exchanges. Margins are to be applied to productivity, and the underling's health is not necessarily a primary concern where they can be replaced.

I had the opportunity to meet Andre last summer while interning at Cisco. I had no idea who he was at first, until I looked him up on LinkedIn and "googled" his name.

Towards the end of my internship, I was there until 10 PM some days working on code. Andre would see my cube lights on and come over to talk to me. Considering how I was just working all alone when there that late, I really appreciated the brief talks, as they provided me when an opportunity to think about something other then the problems within my code for a few moments. He would often share a few technical tips or an interesting story with me during our conversations.

Although I didn't work with him much, it's disappointing to hear of his death. It seems like most of the comments in here (on HN) are regarding mental illness -- something which I never observed during the brief period of time that I knew him. Regardless of his reason for taking his life, I'm glad I had the opportunity to meet him and thank him for those brief conversations.

I haven't been formally diagnosed with bipolar, but I sure as heck have many of the symptoms, including feeling elation and depression at the same time. I also have chronic depression.

What does that mean? Nothing, except I completely see myself in Andre's description. What am I doing about it? Exercising, reading affirmations, trying to watch the diet (tough when broke) etc, etc.

But I read Andre's story and it makes me very sad.

I had a good friend from high school who was brilliant. We were academic rivals, but he definitely outworked everyone in the entire school. He got into Duke and graduated with a double major in engineering and economics. He got his law degree, and then his Master's in Law, and passed the bar exam in New York and I think CA.

He was working in patent law in NYC for a few years, and then abruptly quit and moved back home. He said he had some ideas on businesses, and it seemed rational. He started venturing into religion, not for the sake of religion, but to explore the concept of morality. He didn't have a Jewish background, but he became very interested in Judaism because of it's views on morality, and I even bought a book on the Talmud at his insistence, so that we could talk about it. We would have pretty elaborate discussions on morality, etc, over email. He was engaged to get married to a lovely girl, and things looked fine.

Then, just before they got married, they abruptly cancelled their wedding. I emailed him, and I asked him "How are things going? Enquiring minds want to know!"

His only response was "Who are these enquiring minds that you are asking on behalf of?" We exchanged a few emails after that, he accused me of being immoral, and then I never heard from him again.

I contacted his fiancee, and apparently he was exhibiting signs of paranoid schizophrenia. He had become increasingly paranoid over the last few years, and become more and more disassociated with reality.

After that, he basically disappeared. He was always a bit paranoid about leaving his mark on the Internet, and had multiple fake email addresses, so trying to track him down was basically impossible.

Last year, after many years of no contact, I got a phone call from him, presumably from a number that wasn't his, because he had recently realized that in one of his discussions on his business over 10 years ago, he may have gotten me to agree to terms that would have been personally unfavorable, and he wanted to release me from all obligations from this agreement. I didn't know what he was talking about, but we never did anything more than talk about things, and his "businesses" never amounted to anything except talking. But I agreed to be absolved from those obligations. Then asked how things were with him, and he was extremely vagued, and then hung up on me.

It's very sad, because he was very brilliant, but it's clear he is mentally ill. And there's nothing I can do about it. He has no siblings, and both his parents are dead, so there's no one I can even contact.

It sounds similar to the case of Garzik in that I don't know if the concept of "take care of yourself" is relevant. He probably didn't realize he was mentally ill, if what the original emailer said was true about him being paranoid. It probably would have been something the family would need to pursue, but getting someone evaluated, etc, is hard, and as the emailer said, it would only increase the negative feedback loop for Garzik, since he would suspect everyone was out to get him, so it's a really tough problem to solve.

In the UK it is quite easy (and free obviously, NHS and all that) to get somebody seen by a mental health professional. I have suffered from several mental health problems over the past 3½ years and the only reason I am here today replying to your post is because of the fantastic support provided by the NHS (and my family of course).

I feel so sad when I read stories like yours of friends and loved ones who need help but don't get it :(

For the edification of all the people in the USA regarding current events, this kind of a support system is what helps people who are having issues, and would likely have prevented the tragedies that happened in Aurora or Tucson.

Not to say that other solutions could contribute to a more whole solution, but fundamentally it's people with problems either becoming a danger to themselves and others. And we have no support system for this.

> ...and would likely have prevented the tragedies that happened in Aurora or Tucson.

Or Seattle. Two examples off the top of my head:

The cafe where a well-known Rails meetup happens had a multiple homicide recently. A mentally ill man ended up killing six people total. His family said "we could see this coming." http://healthland.time.com/2012/05/31/seattle-shootings-six-...

A mentally ill man literally axe-murdered another man (who he didn't know) two years ago a half-block away from where I live: http://thesunbreak.com/2010/11/24/mental-illness-drove-capit....

I wonder how much people spend on firmarms, learning how to use them, ammunition, guns safes, etc. ?

I saw a news report that the number of people applying for a gun license in Aurora after the shootings at the cinema went up quite a bit.

To me, as a non-American, that is quite scary. A guy kills and injures a lot of people and the reaction of the public is not "how could we have prevented this?" but "I need a gun so when this happens again I can kill the guy before he kills as many people!"

Scary and quite sad :(

I do not know if James Holmes is suffering from mental health issues and if they are the cause of his violent attack on the people of Aurora however I would suspect mental health problems are involved somewhere and perhaps this tragedy could have been averted had he had the proper help.

I don't think a non-mentally-ill person could do what he did. Pretty much by definition, he's mentally ill.

I am puzzled at how you know what would have prevented the tragedies.

Garzik is not the guy with the problems; Garzik is the guy writing the story.

By the way, thanks for sharing the story of your friend.

I don't know Andre but I know Jeff and he's the most nicest kernel developer out there there is not many that are as much great listener as him

RIP Andre. This makes me think about the people I interact with every day, I have friends who won't accept they even have a problem and believe everything is fine. They seem unble to see it, how do you convince someone like that to go to a therapist?

Perhaps it is the nature of intelligence itself, or just the nature of computer science, but our profession seems to have a higher than average rate of bipolar disorder and other mental illnesses.

Citation needed.

On the other words: All this software development shits are NOT for EARTH. They are for the price competition of capitalist system and can only impact prices in capitalist cities, nothing more than this. Don't put so much meaning and don't think you're becoming a better person when you commit to a repository.

That isn't true. Software is just a kind of tool. Some software is fart apps, some is enterprise CRM but a lot is really useful in tangible ways that have nothing directly to do with capitalism.

I also disagree with the implication that there is something inherently unworthy with selling things on the free market. This is the way most people on earth get most of the things they need and in many cases it is the most efficient rationing mechanism practicable.

Beyond all this, it's good to do things you love. If someone really enjoys the activity then it is none of my business to say they shouldn't because it is at worst quite harmless.

study economics, read history, learn the truth my friend.

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