|I've been lurking on HN for about two years. I'm posting this here because I'm not sure where else to turn and there are a bunch of smart people here who may be able to help.|
I'm in my late 20s and I feel stuck. I had a lot of issues growing up and thankfully was able to work through most of them with the help of a very caring school counsellor. I never went to college and spent a few years drifting between dead end jobs. I currently work in (tele) sales.
I taught myself to program as a teenager on an old Commodore Amiga. Since then I've learned a number of different languages on a few different platforms. Over the years I've started countless projects - more than I can remember. The thing is - I never finish them. I either spend weeks or months refactoring and rewriting the code or more commonly, I finish writing the code then give up when it comes to designing, documenting and polishing. The same is true in other areas of my life. DIY projects, travel plans, education, career changes... it all gets started, nothing gets finished.
I'm literally moved to tears when I think of all the wasted effort over the years - what might have been if I would have stuck with one thing or another. I used to think reading HN would help. Seeing people's MVPs - warts and all - that was supposed to teach me that shipping something was better than shipping nothing but its had the opposite affect. I beat myself up about why other people are able to see things through and I can't - to the point of paralysis some days where I'll waste days on end watching tv or playing games.
I've tried everything I can think of. Therapy, self help, hypnosis, a million productivity books, blogs, apps and techniques. Anything google could tell me about I've looked into and most of it I've tried. Nothing is helping. I'm stuck and I can't see a way out. I feel like Bill Murray's character in Groundhog day.
Please HN, if anyone has been through anything like this or can suggest something I could try... please post. I don't want life passing me by anymore. Help!