But then I close my eyes and imagine myself NOT doing this. Oh well, a shitty corporate job where I feel soul less. And right then, I am back to the grind. This is my own shit. I get to decide. I can scale back if I want to. Some days, I can tell the clients to wait 3 hours. Some days, I am just not in the mood and that wouldn't make my boss upset (I have none. Customers can again wait). Just made a new sale. What a feeling. I am back on the high horse. Woohoooo. Rinse and repeat.
Do the ROI calculations and figure out if you need to hire more. If you can't hire more then you can experiment with a distributed rotational responsibility for that task (Increase pay of your team if needed).
You can put guard rails around the unpredictable.
Also this is where a distributed team might shine - someone will be at work at 7pm.
Keith Rabois has an excellent lecture on that entitled "How to Operate"[^1] in "How to Start a Startup". He gets right into it in the first five seconds.
Ben Horowitz has a lecture in the same series: "How to Manage"[^2].
Andy Grove wrote a book entitled "High Output Management"[^3], that's also referenced in both videos. As a matter of fact, Ben Horowitz wrote the foreword of the newer edition of "High Output Management". The book is good.
I feel like it's just the next step to growing up, sort of like getting married and having kids. There's plenty of perks to being in another phase, but it's important to remember that plenty of people have sacrificed to get you where you are. Your investors, your staff, your family, customers, government, mentors, and of course, yourself.
It's similar to college - it's tempting to just want to take a blue collar job when you're pulling all nighters and have to deal with student loans.
I guess a good reminder is to talk in an anonymous group with others who wouldn't believe you, lol. Maybe a Fortnite discord group or so, lol.
Thankfully HN let's me have a little whine about the toughness of a startup which is better than whining to my wife and causing her undue stress.