|I've never been able to do well on programming interviews.|
I'm 4 years into my career, and have received exactly 2 offers over that time: my current position and another startup sales focused company.
When I start wanting to interview, the thought of going through another whiteboard/google notes interview causes me so much anxiety that I put it off and accept that I'll be at my current job a little longer.
When I finally start grinding leetcode, I take forever to finish a question, usually need to look up answers, and still end up bumbling around during technical screens - doesn't matter if it's a FAANG shop or a 4 person startup.
I have a bad feedback loop now when it comes to doing these types of questions: when I cannot solve it, I assume it's due to lack of intelligence, and not belonging in this field.
How're you able to study HN? And have you figured out a system that's healthy and long-term sufficient to being a software engineer?