(Edit: if you felt like making another worthy donation, the Youth Guard mailing lists are the people I'm referring to -- http://www.youth-guard.org/youth/ . I cannot overstate the impact they had on my life.)
Moral I learned: it's really easy to underestimate impact. I'm personalizing that to relate to development, but I think it's applicable to a lot of what we do.
Thank you for sharing your story. Even though it wasn't directed at me, it gave me considerable pause and something to think about.
And I bet the guy who made the video which inadvertently spawned this idea probably didn't imagine the impact it would have on another man's life.
I am so glad you found peace and a greater sense of belonging to the world.