Ugh, I can relate so strongly. Right now I'm supposed to be filling out my mid-year performance sheet, including team success goals, team player actions, effective communicator actions, achieving business results actions, business goals, personal goals, individual development plan, etc. I've been working on it for 2 days and have hardly anything done. This kind of work is so incredibly difficult for me. It is supposed to be written with maximum business jargon. I'd rather put in a week of all nighters writing some code than working on this.
As a manager in one particularly toxic org, you had to strike a balance where you showed constant forward motion, but not too much. Too little and you'd be tortured with meetings with a PMO, too much progress, you'd be declared a genius and the PMO would either appoint you as a "champion" to get shit done or take your people away.
Not really. They're ammo for whatever the manager wants to do with the target of your review. Management can spin this feedback to fit the agenda. They can also serve as a paper trail for managing someone out.
Of course, the same guy fired me with no notice and no severance on the last day of the month (Wednesday), but as the termination documents helpfully pointed out, my health insurance stayed good until the end of the month.
A similar-ish technique for when I'm stuck trying to figure out how to phrase something: rubber duck saying it without the constraint of needing it to sound fancy/formal/academic/smart, and then remove all the "likes" and make it concise.
I think my biggest problem with writing is that i can’t get into the conversational flow and build sentences block by block. It’s exhausting.
I never got to the point of not strongly disliking the experience of writing reviews, but I was able to make things a lot easier for myself by regularly sharing anything quantifiable related to my work, since I could just look back at what I had shared. It also worked decently well as a forcing function, as I used the heuristic "feels like I have shared anything quantifiable in a while" for "am I sure I'm working on something valuable?"
Note that the above is purely about how I managed the actual experience of writing reviews as an IC at FB, not whether or not it's optimal. My personal opinion is probably that it's a wildly suboptimal system that's still orders of magnitude more effective than not having one at all (for me).
Humans seem to have a tendency to leverage complexity (adding layers until we can't see the bottom anymore) to keep ourselves engaged, so maybe superstition is a side effect of that.
And the problem is, because our brains find patterns in everything, and most readily in our own behaviors, it doesn't take too much iteration for us to go "wait, there's a pattern right there! that makes sense!!1" even when the result is comprised entirely of logical fallacies and chicken soup.